Moonlight

Ok...as an apology for my last rotten post :P
This is one of my poems written last year. Its not great..but it's not bad either.. Hope you'll like it.

I cry, cry and cry

In Dark Silent nights.

Never been someone

To put on the lights,

Brush away the tears...

When the Moon lights up the world and my room,

It feels like an old friend's caresses,

and whispers in the ears...

Then the tears disappear.

And I talk to the bright Moon,

While little by little

A smile replaces the tears...

I think of my earlier distress

And I realise there was no need to stress!

The lights were on for me!!

The Moon came up for me...

=)

The feeling of being in the midst of nowhere... ;/

Lost..? Yeah..That's the word. Why is it that every once in a while we feel lost? Though, we know exactly where we stand! Maybe am just bored. And of course! I think rather too much.. I feel that my brain should be paid for all the overtime thinking (needless to say useless thinking)!!

I want to do so many things daily! I keep getting great ideas! But I'll remain who I am..too lazy to actually do it! I'm sooo not inspired!!! But I really want to do something! I really want to write but I don't know what! You see?? That's the extent to which am lost.. pff...

Ok..Let me write about everything and nothing just for the sake of writing.. Seeing my complete lack of inspiration right now...am very..erm.."not hopeful" of becoming a writer someday. I really should put in some hard work since even the mind works to create dreams...So it's only natural that one has to work hard to fulfill their dreams! The dream of writing did not really crop up 'Out of the blue' ;)

I have someone to thank for that! My dearest sis, Chami! Love you loads!!! You were my first ever mentor! I had always liked writing, but I had never realized just how much until you came around.. I'll never thank you enough.

It's almost a week into my job placement now..Quiet me is working with an attorney! Law was always attractive to me. That was my dream career! It has not really changed. But just a bit modified though in the same field! I fell in love with Criminology when I first heard of it. Got a criminology module coming up this semester! I only pray am not disappointed... What am doing in the placement is not completely related to psychology but at least its something I like! (Yes...my life is really messy!) 

Hmm...I guess am just a hopeless case for tonight. :/ I'd better indulge in more creative writing.. Which is exactly what am gonna do for now.. :)

Oyasumi Mortals! ;)

Once Upon a Time in a Boredom

I wrote this when I was around 15 or 16. So please forgive me if you find anything silly! But I kind of like it...I'd like to develop it into a book someday but seeing the amount of angels and vampire stories around, it might not be wise..

Pearls of Punishment

Wearing those shining pink clothes; she seemed like an Angel,
the most angelic...
Pearl like drops glistened down her rosy cheeks.
She then appeared to be surprised.
Catching one drop of this pearl in her outstretched marble like hands,
she looked thoughtful...

She looked up when he approached. 

Her curiosity seemed to be greater than her sorrow.
She asked him what these liquid pearls were.

He looked at her, surprised by such a question.
He was now convinced that this was an Angel for sure...
A pure one!

Sitting in the shade of the tree on the grass of this gorgeous hill,
under the shining sun and cloudless sky;
she had indeed looked like an Angel.

When he had come up the hill,
it was like being in a fairy tale...

But alas! Those pearl tears...
She told him that she had been punished.
She was imprisoned on earth, her sweet memories wiped forever!
With the only cruel remembrance that she was sure she did not deserve the punishment.

She would have to live and die!
Yes! Die! Because...
She was no longer an immortal in this mortal world!

She would have to live in a world where good and bad co-existed.
She would have to feel emotions unknown to her like now!

Even Mother Earth refused to open up and accept her in her warm comforting lap!
She feared to be punished like the Angel...

That's what she had feared, the poor little Angel.
She feared this Selfish and Greedy world...

But she need not have feared!
Helping her up and standing by her side her whole life, he made her realize that
Heaven and Hell can be both found on Earth.
He protected her from Hell and introduced her to Heaven,,,

He was her Angel! Her own Guardian Angel!
In the Shining Armour of a Knight sent to protect her!
She decided she would love to stay on this planet with Him!

How mistaken she was! Too innocent!
How could she even think that this Cruel and Selfish world would let her be happy?

Separation Struck! She was snatched from her Guardian Knight Angel!
and brought back to her own world!
This, she realized, was her real punishment!

She had a glimpse of Hell in Paradise...
She would soon forget, thought everyone...And she did!
But her heart did not!

Her heart still wept at the remembrance of the glimpse of hell she had in Paradise;
which reminded her of her Guardian Knight Angel.
And pearls still ran down her cheeks,

Never again to be wiped away by her Angel...

Indulging errant thoughts...

My first ever blog... I already have the feeling that this is gonna be boring. Actually..I don't really know how it works; or even why people write blogs. I might as well say that am just trying to get rid of my boredom by doing something I like; Writing! :) or rather.. 'Typing'..

Uni vacations are here. How is it possible for a normal student to be getting bored? Well, it definitely is! I love my little orthodox island; of course, the orthodox bit can be rather irritating. But! I have to admit the mix of culture does stop me from doing silly things.

How about I try a bit of self analysis? You're warned, am strange! So.. here we go!

Shy? Most of the time..controversial? I guess i am. Am a pretty confused person considering what I want from life. Most important! I hate describing myself! So am kind of struggling to find the right words. But since I really love writing, I'll make an effort. My passion? Music! How I wish music was a reasonable career option in my country...*sigh* Instead singing is only my favorite hobby. Once upon a time I used to write poems. Most of them indecipherable to strangers! I'll post some of them later. But I really should get back to it soon. Like music, writing is also NOT the best career to choose here. Unfortunate me! When am in the mood I can write pretty things unlike now. So, being a reasonable person I've chosen a reasonable field of study; Psychology. Whatever my friends may say and however much I may complain, I really love the subject but what I love better is Criminology, though these days am addicted to Japanese animes! Hmmm.. What next? Yeah! I am one of the few Proud persons who can claim to have the Bestest friends around! Throw in The Bestest Parents as well! I am not who I am by myself. They have a major role to play!

My first year at uni is over. I simply can't believe its gone by so fast! Am afraid the next two years are going to go just as fast! I do not really want to grow up that fast! I like my student life, in fact LOVE it! Being carefree (within limits) and hanging around with friends! My mind is full of the plans which have already been formed for the next coming year! I plan to become a better student (I'll most inevitably miserably fail like each year)! I am kind of a lazy person... Blogging seems very interesting but I might easily give it to laziness! Yeah..That's me.. But I'll definitely make an effort. It will be an enriching experience! :)

So I'll stop boring you now if you have not already stopped reading quite long back! I'll look up one of my poems for you! :)

Good Night all!